Coco... what you're talking about sounds less like love and more like... desperation. And I know it hurt seeing her in that dream. But... that's not the answer. It's never the answer. You should never change yourself for one person, even if it's the one you love, because you're not changing something for yourself. You have to be true to yourself, no matter what that might mean.

And this kind of path is not the kind of path you need to go on, or even think about doing. And especially not just because you want to be with her. Like I said from the beginning: that's not good. It won't ever be good. And it might hurt, but it'll hurt less now than in the future when something goes horribly wrong, or you find out that you hurt way more ponies and people in what happened than the one person you're doing this for.